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"Exposure" / חשוף

The truth is, that since graduating from Harvard I have been keeping-- protecting --a special kind of solitude. It is no news that I keep a journal and that I take it everywhere I go. Into the pages I pour my thoughts, my excitement, and my despair for the life I lead, all in cover-to-cover privacy. The truth is, that I need this space. I need it to sustain the integrity of my identity, which in every new place faces challenges that help me to grow and become a richer person, a more responsible man, and a more sensitive artist. I indulge in the mystery of my own musings, how even as their author the deeper meaning and significance of what I convey eludes even me. This semi-opaque enigma follows me everywhere I go, and softens the impact of new people, new ideas, and new queries. Of course, I am still a human being. My solitude does not isolate me completely from my peers. (I was cautioned against this by a mentor whom I greatly trust.) However all of this is to say that as I move through life I never fail to carry inside me, at each moment, a great and hollow space wherein reside my visions, expectations, dreams, doubts, questions, pieces of answers, memories, sadness, thankfulness, and a profound hope for the future.

 Perhaps some of you reading this know me well or hardly at all. In any case, I draw back the curtain and invite you all to peruse the pages of my private journal and the photos from the last few years of my life in college and now as I live in Israel. The content from my journal appears separately from the photo content, and everything is organized chronologically moving towards the present date. There is a lot of material here (85 total images of journal, and X photos), so please feel free to return to this page as often as you would like. 

(Tip: to better read the text, right-click an image and select "Open Image in a New Tab". Here, you can choose to magnify the image. You can further click "Ctrl+" and "Ctrl-" to adjust the size of the image on the page.)

 "Why have I chosen to do this?" he asks himself.
RLW

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